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There is a subtext behind 'write or die,' the need to write about what really happens, and it's integral to the need. If I'm going to write honestly, I have to behave as if my actions matter; I have to speak and act as if I may have to write about it.

And this is part of what I need. Yes, it matters. I must live as if what I do matters

I have to figure out a way to write, because it's what I want to do to feel alive

3:48 AM 5/30/2006